Mood One:Morning...

Why didn’t I say Yes ? Or no…whatever the answer was..Why didn’t I just say it…For me..for you..for them…For the sake of that Colour…For the sake of that sound..For the sake of that smell…For the sake of that Taste…
Or was I just unaware of the greatness of that moment…Is it my eyes ? Or my ears ? Or my nose…No ! I Feel it..It’s closer than what I expected It’s a light…It’s Cosmic…Supernatural…It’s utopic..It’s ephemeral…It’s magnetism…It’s chemestry …It’s Green above Yellow…And than Red…And Then dark…It’s a pitch...It’s a motion…
Annnd Action !
I don’t know… It’s not real…is it ?
The sun on my face...the breeze on my skin…Love in my ears…and the Cigarette burning while buildings are moving...You’re close…You’re the only thing that is steady...
I said it already…
That A Yes…That’s my Yes…

Anorexie Post Traumatique...

Mode "Derja": On

Music: On

...Action

واحد.. ثنين...ما نجّمشْ..

واحد..ثنين...تعبْت..

ساهلة ماهلة.. ما فيها شيّ..

و مجهـّمة عليّا..

نعرف نحسب عهدي بروحي...

آما الثّلاثة..كي الشّوكة في حلقي..

يا حسرة كي كانِتْ هيَّ الكلّْ...

كُلْ ما تِصْعاب الحكاية هيٌ تسَهِّلْ..

في الفُمّ كي العسلّ...

ماحلاها.. كانِتْ كيما السّرْ..

و في كلّ محضِرْ تحضِرْ...

كي نِنْساها فِيسَعْ نتْذَكِّرْ...

ما تصوِّرتهاش نهار تخلّيها بِيَّا..

حتّى باش نقولها يصير فيَّا...

ملاٌ زهر علِيّا...

واحد... ثنين...ايَّا يِزِّي...

توٌا إلّي فات مات...

وإلي مات فاتو شطرّ عُمرو...

وإلي عُمرو ما حسِبْ وَحْدو..

شَيْ ما فضُلُّو...

Atonement...

To you..The one we're fighting for..I wish I could know how you're feeling.. I wish You could Say something..Anything... All we know is we love the hell out of you... We may have realised it a little too late.. But deep down it has always been confused with something else.. I don't even know what to say to you to make you feel better... And I'm afraid things are getting worse.. And even if I came up with something.. I wouldn't know how to say it on my own...All I know is I'm filled with rage, anger and pain...And This litterally applies to everyone who loves you as much as I do... To everyone who worships you and respects you... To everyone who sees in you everything he wants to achieve... Every single child whose dreams are all about A better You..Every woman and every man who isn't ready to give up on You...
We feel like we're stuck in the middle of a chess game.. But this time we won't let any of the pkayers win..Because it's only about You and us...You and us against the world.. As for me I wish I can promise you something...Anything... I guess I can do it with a little Help of Everyone .. We won't let you down... As long As we have pride and our feet on the ground...We will be taking care of You.. Of every single part of you..And soon we'll be the greatest we've ever been...


With all my love...

Black Holes And Revelations...Or When I Got Loaded and Couldn't Shut it up!

I don't remember how it happened...Not that I didn't try...I just can't...And yet I did fall ,or was it the world pushing me away? Here, in my unknown celestial position, I Still can't find the answers to all the questions I've been asking myself...but I saw a thing...A very special thing...Something I couldn't guess on my own...

I saw it coming...It was unpredictible...So I had to choose Which one of the three voices inside my head was right...True Story!

One:

"You can't be afraid of something you don't know...Only Cowards are!You've already been dumpt...What worse could happen? Maybe it's not what you think it is..Maybe this is what you need...Maybe there , you can find the answers..And Damn I'm tired Of the questions...So You are going to give it a shot...You are the witness of the collision...You won't get hurt..."

Two:

"You are so fucked! There is no way you're going to survive this...Good for me I'm imaginairy...You created me and I won't feel anything...But dude you're getting the shit...You're feeling the pain.,..I don't know what is worse: That black hole getting bigger or me leaving you right now ? 'Cause man I don't want to see what's happening next..."

Three:

"You need to stop this...Stop Thinking...And just look...Look around you...You know that thing don't you?Just look...Up and down...You have never left the world...You can't exist somewhere else...That's bullshit...Just Like I only exist in your head...And damn it ain't a blackhole, or whatever planet voice one made you believe it is...It's just the other side of the world...Your world...Everybody's...You'll just have to get used to the idea...That you can't understand everything...That you only get the chance to be on one side...Not Both...Not Any...One!"

God, yu tekem laef blong mi(/Take my life and let it be)

Worlds…There are probably as many worlds as there are words... Just a thought...The Second you’re living right now is a world... The only World you live in Actually… The shortest One…It’s Ironic that the present lasts a second…

My name is Mister D, I’m 22, a second, and an unknown other number. I’m not here now , but have been here for a long time…22 years actually... I couldn’t find that thing I ‘ve been chasing for years so I left… I’m living the “unknown number” Somewhere else… I have no idea what will it be like but I’m Okay..I’m willing to live in each world the way I see it… I want more than what a second allows me to do…

In the list of things I couldn’t do in a second there is you… It takes time… And All I have is a second…All we have is a second… The future is a second away from the past… And you’re light years away from my world(s)…Now I’m In your “Second”, A second Later I’ll be in you’re Past…Plus I already Exist in your mind because you probably know me if you’re reading this…That makes already 3 worlds with you…

Call Me Crazy…Call all my words Bullshit…I don’t care…I’ll be just fine in Some random Other World…

My name is Mister D , I’m 693792000 Failed attempts to live, a second, and an unknown other number…

In "Others" World Or: How I Managed Not To Hate a Rainy Saturday Night...

We are all special and unique..Which makes us all the same..Which also gets me thinking that All the time we spend searching for someone special and unique is a waste... Life ain't about picking people for some reason or another...But somehow, we were basically created to be dependent on the "others"*...To see ourselves in the "others"**...To relate all our feelings to "others' "***...To always have commitments towards "others"****..To always look forward to meet that "other"*****...The Only "other" we'll be ready to uncheck on the long list of the "others"******... Not only are we wasting time, we also might end up hurting some random "other"*******'s feelings...Which finally brings us to wonder why the hell can't we just pick the People we hang out with...

*Basically, it refers to Family( Parents/ Sisters/Brothers...etc)

**The Old lady in the street , The guy on the grocery shop, The girl in the car next to you on the traffic jam, every other people on your school except for your friends...etc

*** Friends, People you get along very well with, Family again, people you like and not specially know...

****Teachers, Bosses...Everyone profesionally related to you...

*****(Love)

******People who were originally listed among the "others"***, but whom you ended up hating and regretting every single second you spent with...

*******People you might think are listed among the "others"**, not knowing that for them you're the "other"*****...

The End.

Photo:Khelifi Nader©

On/Off the Hook...

It all started like a million years ago...When Homo erectus me accidently bumpt into homo erectus you... Great moment by the way... Homo erectus me was just getting out of that cave ..that dark creepey cave.. When out of the blue, he saw homo erectus you...Homo erectus abso-fuckin-lutely awesome you...Homo erectus Jesus!( No He didn't exist At that time..but Hey let's pretend he did..For the sake of the story)..So, Homo erectus me was like:"Hey! Wanna hang out sometimes?"...NO Answer!

But I guess, at that time,homo erectus you wasn't really that into homo erectus me... Plus, it wasn't really the greatest era I assume... Caves , hunting And stone..Life was such a waste..

So, Millions of years later Fate brought homo sapiens me and homo sapiens you together, Again...Different Era...Different conditions...Our ancestors have made it to Asia..But chances are; you didn't really make your mind about it... That's when it hit me:It isn't about time...

So Here we are now...A million years later...The "Douchebags" Era..(Also known as:Ridiculousness Era, Tha Silly Era, Over Consumerism Era...More on that later anyways...)..I,present me, am officially over all the versions of you...Exept for Future you...I heard future me is Awesome!

(Spoilers:Always trust present "you"'s feelings, Always forget about whatever shit did past "you" do And Always leave the door open for future "you" ;)