Extrait 4 "Monologues/Stereo logs" By Nader Khelifi

-I should've thought about it... Digged deeper... Gone with the whole normal process... But I didn't give a damn... I Said to myself it was going to be easier this way...

-But it's not , is it?

-I don't know... I kind of lost the ability to judge... It may seem crazy now... I don't think I'm drowning yet.. I just want to reach the bottom... See what it looks like down there.. On my way..On my way dude!...

-Totally Insane... It's not a movie you're talking about..It's .. Damn!

-(Owwwwww) Shut the fuck up Mister "Real Life", would you?...I don't Give a shit to what you're saying... I don't even Know why the fuck am I still telling you my stories...You know what? I'm off..

-I'm afraid you've gone too far... Somebody's got to reach you...Someone's got to bring you closer..

-And that will definitely not be you my dear... It's not a movie..That, I know...but it's a story...My story..I'm Writing it..Living it..Sometimes Screwing it... But I'm not missing the littlest part of it... Always everywhere...down..up..Sometimes lost between the two...Other times taking Wrong ways...But I'm so not missing it...And you've got to be okey with that...Otherwise, I don't see the point of...

-Mister D, This is Caleb...He's gonna be your new friend for a while...

...

Extrait 3 "Monologues/Stereo logs"By Nader Khelifi

-Awkward... It feels awkward... To know you're there...Where I left you...I can see you in the dark... I'm trying to do things I used to love...The kind of things you never knew I loved...So here I am... No longer blinded by the light...I'm touching it...feeling it...I used to call it hope...Now I'm seeing things my own way...I call it Freedom...

-Mis..

-I cared...I always cared about you...I was always there... Up when it's right...Down when it's wrong... The point is we were not... Maybe sometimes I guess... But I'm an "always " person... not a "sometimes" neither an "often" one...

-Mist...

The song...Listen to it...more and more...See that picture... See it again...Now take a deep breath...keep breathing...it's just a Goodbye...Maybe in a different life the end was better...But keep in mind that...maybe it was worse too...

-Mister D.

-What the...What the Hell? Who are you?

-I'm...I'm...Well Let's say I'm your new friend...Are you okay with that?

...

Extrait 2-"Monologues/Stereo logs" By Nader Khelifi

For one reason or another, or maybe just like that, people do change.
Sometimes it doesn't make sense...
Sometimes it just feels weird...
Sometimes it's even hard to get used to it whatever we do...
So later that night I got to thinking about change...how hard do we need it? How hard do we need to struggle to get used to it?

-Does it feel right?
-I don't know...
-But you...you..
-I'm the one who is supposed to help you when you get lost, right?
-At least you always were..
-I do... But I believe that somehow you managed to make the right decisions.. All by yourself... Like a grown-up...
-Is that good?
-For you ?yes...It's great!
-But you don't seem to like it...
-Don't you worry about a thing... I'm great!
-I don't think so.
-Don't think...that's when you need me!
-Where are we going?
-We never knew... That's what makes it special...We never knew where to go... But I guess our relationship has an expiration date...
-Are you breaking up with me... me??
-....

And what if we never get to that point?

Extrait-"Monologues/Stereo logs" By Nader Khelifi

-How was it Mr D?
-It was hard...harder than I thought...Words just couldn't come out...
-Why is that?
-Well...If I knew I wouldn't be having this conversation with you.
-I see...So I'm supposed to help you deal with that...Is that what you think Mr D?
-Absofuckinglutely!
-I just don’t get you...
-It’s funny...Everyone keeps on telling me that!
-And why is that?
-Shut up! What on earth is your job?
-The same as yours...
-I don’t ask stupid useless questions...
-And I don’t know who am I...just like...
-Just like what? Say it!
-Just like anyone who’s lost..confused...Did you think I was gonna say « you »?
-Stupid questions...here we go again!
-I don’t know what to say...
-Okey now stop being like « me »..you’re freaking me out!
-...
-So..How was it?
-How was what?
-Trying to help me...
--It was hard...harder than I thought...

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Later that night, I got to thinking about Friends...who are they really?

Te ones that are there for you when you need it the most or the ones that disappoint you when you expect it the least?

The ones that tell you the truth to protect you.. or the ones that hide it to protect themselves.

The ones that make you laugh to feel better. or the ones that laugh at your face so you can't see the worst part..

The ones you can go everywhere with. or the ones with whom you're just turning around...

In such a chaotic world, I couldn't help but wonder: Is there a perfect friend? Is there a "right time" with the "right person" in the "right place" ?

Well it happens that it never happens...but we keep on believing....Although we know that things like "And they lived happily ever after.." Are just fantasies...fairy tales' ends...And life is not a Disney movie..

So maybe there is no Grey... Still we can enjoy Black and White, live them, mix them and feel them..

I, so came to the conclusion that friends are all those ones..And maybe deep inside even if you can't feel it.. you're just one of those....or maybe all of them!

Coulda Woulda Shoula...

What is worse to deal with? Saying something you didn't mean Or meaning something but never ever said it? Well I know those two..It's about hurting other people's feelings or moving forward with all yours behind.
The funny thing is..you never have to choose..When faced to a situation of this kind ,you never have to choose...Never!Words just come out..Inconciously..Out of the blue...Or they don't...just like that!
you only have the power to change things...to fight your own words..Understand them once you said them..or understand why is it too hard to get them out..You can fix things you've already screwed..there are always words stronger than the ones you said..and always a right timeto say them..to make a change for the ones you love ..or just for yourself..See? It's not always easy to make things work.. Welcome to life..the coulda woulda shoulda Party!

Give and Take...

Ever since we were kids, they've been teaching us the "Give and Take" thing. What is life about? Giving and taking...What is love about? Giving and taking...It becomes such an evidence when slowly the child becomes a grown-up...Then you decide you grew up enough to face the truth, to put on practice the things you've been taught.. And you are now about to Give...Everything...The best of you.
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Sometimes , if you're lucky.. the experience goes right .. And you feel like that little kid who passed his first exam. And sometimes it's even better... You're like that guy who won on lottery...You take things you've never given. But as life is not as perfect as we all want it to be... Sometimes you just feel tired of always giving without a return...
Words can make it.."thank you " can make it... "sorry" can make it.." I love you" would make the best of it... But no! You got nothing this times..It's a shame!
"Cive and Take"...That is so not what life is about... neither what love is...You've been fooled... And by the way...Santa Clause doesn't exist!

A new Day....

When you expect it the most..When you really know it's going to happen..don't let it go..Trust it..Face it..Stand for it...Fight it..Feel it...make it...
Good or Bad..Happy or Sad...It's a new day..The day that may change your life..The day you've been waiting for since the last day...Just before the last time you closed your eyes..It is THE day..
Walk the line..Make a change..Nothing's gonna stop you.Nothing but your fears..And you're so not letting them screw your Day..You're getting stronger..you're free..you passed ...You are making it..I can see it now..
Believe it...Don't try to wake up..It's not a dream..It's just a new Day..

Dream...

A dream...We all have One..We all need to.;But the hardest part once you have it,is to wake up from, to face the truth.We struggle..We fight..We open our eyes wide to realise that like almost everything a dream fades away..A Dream ends up..It's Only A dream.
It's hard to admit..Hard to live..Hard to face..It's hard to just walk away...To see things the way they are and not the way you want them to be...The way they should be and not the way they should have been...It's hard to go on the other side..When pushed by reality you realise that ...:It 's just A dream.

Pain...

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.
And the truth is...
We hide so we can be found
We walk away to see who will follow
We cry to see who will wipe our tears away.
....and we get our hearts broken to see who will come fix them

We all fall in love sometimes...

"Jeff: This should bring back some memories..I think...everything I do should bring back some memories
Interviewer: except for that last song..
J.: everybody has memories of love gone bad for some reason, especially if it's gone bad for reasons they don't know about..and they can never really figure out...that on..that last one was called 'Unforgiven'
I: is that a new song of yours...?
J: that's a song of mine, it's not new..
I: no?
J: no."

(...excuse me..)

Wise men say
It looks like rain today
It crackled on the speakers
And trickled down the sleepy subway trains
For heavy eyes could hardly hold us
Aching legs that often told us
It’s all worth it
We all fall in love sometimes

The full moon’s bright
And starlight filled the evening
We wrote it and I played it
But something happened it’s so strange this feeling
Naive notions that were childish
Simple tunes that tried to hide it
But when it comes
We all fall in love sometimes

Didn’t we? did we? should we? could we?
I’m not sure but sometimes we’re so blind
Struggling through the day
When even your best friends say
Don’t you find?
We all fall in love sometimes

hmmm...

Oh, yeah..
And only passing time
Could kill the boredom we acquired
Running with the losers for a while
And our empty sky was filled with laughter
Just before the flood
Painting worried faces with a smile

Wise men say
It looks like rain today
It crackled on the speakers
And trickled down the sleepy subway trains
For heavy eyes could hardly hold us
Aching legs that often told us
It’s all worth it
We all fall in love sometimes

oh oh oh...

We all fall in love some times...